i don't wanna be stuck here.

i told kathy about jem because she asked why i wanted to move to new york once and he's one of the reasons and just tonight, she wanted to get ahold of jem (i'm not sure why, i'm thinking that it could possibly have something to do with me moving to new york). she also emailed me telling me that she wanted to talk to me about moving to new york and about jem on monday. i'm busy monday morning, so she better be coming monday afternoon. i don't know why she wants to talk to me about jem, i told her that i haven't spoke to him in a long time. i bet that she might be figuring that how do i expect him to talk to me when he hasn't spoke to me in so long and how do i expect for us two to speak to each other when he's barely ever around and i'll just say that's something that we'll deal with if it becomes a problem ever. the thing is that i'm not sure if jem is ready for me to come to new york? i don't just wanna show up and feel like i'm being a big burden on him. kathy told me to tell him to call her or email her but i don't really have a way to tell him to do that.. so, that kinda poses a bit of a problem? i'm afraid that kathy won't help me get to new york if she doesn't know that i'm going there to see someone responsible or that seems like she can trust.